Monday, November 09, 2009
I can't act normal around you.
because I don't know how I'm supposed to behave around you.
because I'm still waiting for your reply.
because there's still that mountain-high of misunderstandings-to-awkwardness between us.
& because I can't act.
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 9:49 PM
Friday, October 23, 2009
when life throw you lemons, catch them & make lemon juice out of it... (& there's more than 1 way of getting lemon juice! cut each lemon into half, or into slices or just throw the lemon in without cutting etc. =)
when life throws you a flying saucer, have a game of Frisbee!
we can all do with some endorphins in our bloodstream.
negativity feeds on negativity,*
so let's throw in some positivity =)
For all who have been there for me for the past 36 hours (be it in person, phone calls or msn), I really appreciate it. It hurts to a point and then it doesn’t get any worse.** If there's any good out of this incident, it's the fact that it made me more appreciative of the presence of my dear friends, that I still have a support system to fall back on' as L puts it... I never knew some of my friends make such good councilors Xp
sometimes we need to take a step back & see things from the perspective of a bystander.***
sometimes we need to unlink many of the linkages we are so prone of making. because it has the tendency to complicate otherwise separate non-complicated happenings or issues. while we berate others for others for doing so, it's easy not to realize that we're subconsciously guilty of the very same thing ourselves, till some kind brave soul point it out to us.
In the teachings of Christianity, the one without sins can cast the first rock.
(edited the rest out. that's all I'll say at this point in time.)
_______________________________
* quote from a dear friend
** quote from G's blog
*** quote from a dear wise friend
Posted by from roots to blooms at 4:31 AM
Friday, September 25, 2009
Maybes
maybe it doesn't matter.
maybe I don't want to know.
maybe it's kind of telling after all your words and actions.
but at the end of it all, it's just kind of sad that such doubts could have cross your mind.
that I'm dumb enough to be such a person in your eyes.
cos it shows how little you know me.
how little faith you have in me.
or maybe I've lost you a long time ago.
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 9:27 PM
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Running out of time
Of late, I've been feeling like I'm running out of time.
the last year of sch... I feel so old & out of place... like I'm helplessly grasping at straws on all aspects...
There's just some things that has gone past me, beyond my grasp... and the sad part is I will never have a shot at it again... because it's the last year of sch. circumstances can be so cruel to strike you time and again. yeah I know it is kind of silly that all my school life, I've always placed so much importance on such matter (perhaps way too much importance)... one would think that after all that dissapointments, I would have grown out of it & not to give a damn about it. but the truth is that the heart never does learn, depite knowing better. no matter how I try to rationize or suppress my emotions, I still feel defeated... it sucks that my ability and/or efforts are just not good enough.
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 11:43 PM
Saturday, September 12, 2009
cos maybe it's just a matter of choice, a matter of perception,
how you view things & issues...
at this very moment, I feel hopeful & contented :)
Posted by from roots to blooms at 12:01 AM
Saturday, September 05, 2009
had a nice day today :)
started the day wacthing UP with P in the East, where she surprised me with lots of Reese!!! then a site visit for project all the way in the West, a short walk-about @ JP thereafter, went IMM to meet P & S for dinner & got some stuff... & last but not least, Rocher bean curd for supper. conversation topic of the day was INSECTS haha. super entertaining & hilarious. I laughed till I almost had stiches during dinner.
hmmm...
if only i can meet up with my friends more often...
if only i can go home late without feeling like thief...
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 1:53 AM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I'm craving for nanohana nishin!!!
pls bring Japan to me or me to Japan...
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 11:21 PM
Lessons we can learn from Steve Job
I just have to trust that the dots will connect,
that things will work itself out.
It has been a long time since I read something inspirational. The following are some excepts from Steve Job's commencement speech in 2005 on lessons from his life.
* Connecting the dots *
"you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever."
* Death *
"If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right."
"Because almost everything... just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."
"Death is Life's change agent."
"Your time is limited... Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."- Steve Job -
http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html
Labels: food for thought, quotes
Posted by from roots to blooms at 10:26 PM
saw this in the email:
What is Marketing?
1. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: “I am very rich. Marry me!” – That is Direct Marketing
2. You’re at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you and says: “He’s very rich. Marry him.” – That’s Advertising
3. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day, you call and say: “Hi, I’m very rich. Marry me.” – That’s Telemarketing
4. You’re at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie, you walk up to her and pour her a drink, you open the door (of the car) for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her ride and then say: “By the way, I’m rich. Will you marry me?” – That’s Public Relations
5. You’re at a party and see a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says: “You are very rich! Can you marry me?” – That’s Brand Recognition
6. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: “I am very rich. Marry me!” She gives you a nice hard slap on your face. – That’s Customer Feedback
7. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: “I am very rich. Marry me!” Then she introduces you to her husband. – That’s the demand and supply gap
8. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say anything, another person come and tell her: “I’m rich. Will you marry me?” and she goes with him – That is the competition eating into your market share
9. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say: “I’m rich, marry me!” your wife arrives. – That’s restriction for entering new markets
Posted by from roots to blooms at 3:38 PM
Monday, August 17, 2009
damn the tutorials! feeling super frustrated over all the timetable planning, tutorial slots. why the hell did I even took a language elective? to be alone for 4 hrs in sch with strangers practicing the new language? should have gone solo & threw all my freaking points on the super expensive writing module. damn the bad decisions. it's the 2nd last sem, I think it would take all the miracle in the world for the stars to align next sem. but the ODDS of it happening is too freaking low to even happen, considering that it didn't happen in the 7 sems despite the way much higher odds.
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 11:51 PM
Friday, August 14, 2009
Ever wonder why you feel life's kind to you for that few moments when it all comes crashing down the very next day when u accidentally stumbled onto what u probably rather no know? Is that life's way of balancing? to taper the bad news with the good news.
I longed to have a good heart-to-heart talk with you. because we're in NOT that different situations. because I think we both feel the same way... maybe? but sadly, we are both too proud to admit it. is it just me or the wall between us really too high?
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 3:16 PM
Life's Good
the night b4, I ran 10km with tan tan & donut in sch. pain never felt more gratifying.
today, I had lunch @ Aston with the girls. food was yummy considering I totally spoil my taste bud with all the yummy & cheap food I had in KL. it was nice to catch up with them & make plans...
other lunch, PY & I continued to shop. Orchard Central does have nice toilet design :)
night came, & Sam called us up for supper. & the KL gang settled @ Siglap's Xin Wang for our supper & to satisfy my craving for luncheon meat & Jev's new-found addiction to tai di. It was so freaking fun! because I was winning all the way after the first 2 rounds till I left haha... totally miss the 88 hours we spent together in KL... think this KL kakki gang's here to stay, since the previous 1 has sort of lapsed into zero activities... we want to have k-box tgt, go Jev's place for more card games, go for another trip tgt... Penang, Batam, Bintang...
as I'm typing this entry @ home, the 3 of them are still playing tai di @ Xin Wang :)
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 1:08 AM
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Back from KL
there's a million & 1 things running through my mind right now...
just want to say that I'm so glad we push on & went ahead with the overseas trip (even though the initial place of destination & kakkis changed). I had a great time, which pretty much surpass what I'd expected. (I had zero expectations b4 the KL trip, because previous KL trip(s) with the family many years back didn't hold much memorable memories.)
maybe it was all a blessing in disguise. maybe this was how it was meant to unfold. that in the end, everything works out as it should, for the best. to escape somewhere else totally & have a great time, create new experiences, make new friends & forge bonds with kakkis whom u would want to travel together again and again.
whenever 1 door close, another opens. we just have to keep our spirits up, our hearts & minds open, to not pine for the closed door & look out for the next 'open door'. after all, the only constant is change. things change. ppl change. dynamics change. perhaps ppl whom you thought you know turned out to be ppl u didn't know well enough. all we can do is accept it & MOVE ON. no doubt, I might have read too much into it. I can choose to defend the actions of my friend(s) & try to believe in their best intentions (maybe it's that trust issue, or the not-that-you-don't-trust-me, but those are things you really wanna keep it to yourself because it's a secret, it involves more than just yourself, & letting anyone else know could potentially backfire?)... BUT at the end of the day, it's tiring to feign ignorance & not guess what could be the reason. I can't ignore the warning signs, can I? what does it all goes to show when I would come to know of it sooner or later? Is it really that difficult for you to be frank with me?
I might resent what'd happened, but ironically, I'm also thankful for it as this was undeniably 1 of the push factors for me to make the trip. that pretty much set the course of things to come. everything work out nicely for that getaway.
I just want to say this again:
humans are often too quick to judge & assume based on what they see or hear, but more often than not, what they see or hear doesn't reflect the whole picture.
IF ONLY we can be bothered to make an effort to dig below the surface to find out the truth...
I remember a while back, there was that evasive atmosphere over certain things... & I can't say I was immune to it. I much rather ppl be upfront with their intentions/thoughts/feelings, than sugarcoat them with layers of half truths /lies or hide them from me whatever the case. I was torn between clarifying things & acting blur / feigning ignorance (I still do.) I wanted to much to confront, to get the matter off my chest, but felt that it was pretty pointless, as far as past experience goes. How in the world do u bring out such sensitive issue tactfully & not lose whatever's left? I hate to say this, that maybe all these second guessing's right. Oh pls! for once, I want so much to be proven wrong.
P.S. gosh! this happy post that was supposed to be on the trip had turned into an emo-ish post on b4 the trip. Next post will be a happy post on the KL trip!
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 3:12 AM
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
What we take to be true is what we believe.
What we believe is based on our perceptions.
What we perceive depends on what we look for.
What we look for depends on what we think.
What we think depends on what we perceive.
What we perceive determines what we take to be true.
What we take to be true is our reality.- Gary Zukav -
Labels: quote
Posted by from roots to blooms at 11:54 PM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which Im dying
Are the best Ive ever had
I find it hard to tell you
Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
Its a very, very
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me whats my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which Im dying
Are the best Ive ever had
I find it hard to tell you
Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
Its a very, very
Mad World
Posted by from roots to blooms at 11:23 PM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
“I don’t think things can turn out.
That’s all, and I’ve accepted it.
It doesn’t matter to me.
It’s not pessimism, just a sort of sadness,
sort of like not having any hopes.”
-Bob Dylan
Labels: quote
Posted by from roots to blooms at 1:23 AM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
to the point where I just want to recklessly put a FULL STOP to it.
without due care of any consequences there could be.
I won't deny that I've a part in play for how things turned out,
but I'm way past caring at this moment.
All I want to do is to RESTART on a NEW PAGE.
though I'm unsure as to whether what I want is what I need.
Perhaps I should be more RECKLESS.
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 12:48 AM
Friday, April 03, 2009
beyond the world till the end of time
where the rain won't hurt
fighting the storm into the blue
...
Labels: lyrics, Monsoon, Tokio Hotel
Posted by from roots to blooms at 1:53 AM
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
tonight's supper was simple but nice. it's funny how sometimes u can have supper @ the same place but come out of it with a different feel, different take on it. or maybe it was just the 2 perfect plaster prata and the great company working the magic! we should do suppers more often :)
feel blessed to have u guys in my life.
*****************************************************************
I do noticed the "parallels" happening these days...
like how our take on certain issues differs like polar ends...
how as dom says "like 2 parallel lines, never to meet"
how it makes me take a step back to reflect on my cynical take on it...
Still, it would be nice to be able to see things in rose-tinted glasses but I guess there are certain things in life that's just irreversible...
& how the actions of the ppl around us often serve as a mirror of the very same actions of ours... I'm thankful for that, for being able to realize my mistakes when I see some1 else unknowingly doing the same things. it would be sad to realize too late (like when are old & wrinkly) how wrong our actions can be sometimes, or worse still, to never realize it at all. I do see ppl who are like that, & I pray that I would never be like them and act like the way they do. It is all too easy to forget not to judge, to not be self-absorbed and get consumed by things which doesn't matter at the end of it all...
so much for my ramblings which isn't exactly coherent..
Posted by from roots to blooms at 11:51 PM
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
I'm pleased with what I whipped up for lunch today. a simple more-claypot-style rice than the previous attempt without using the claypot & mushrooms this time round... with all that dark soya sauce & slightly-burnt taste that I like... plus sunny-side up egg... top it up with a glass of orange juice & a cup of cappuccino float with caramel almond ice cream :)
Posted by from roots to blooms at 1:27 PM
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
To propose to his girlfriend, this guy got strangers to pass balloons, each with a note from him attached, to his girlfriend as they walk across the Brooklyn Bridge.
See more of it here.
Labels: Something Sweet
Posted by from roots to blooms at 12:07 AM
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
because somethings are too good to be true
Labels: mood, musings, ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 9:08 PM
Saturday, February 28, 2009
One evening an old Cherokee Indian told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, ‘My son, the battle is between two ‘wolves’ inside us all.
One is evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.’
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
‘Which wolf wins?’
The old Cherokee simply replied,
‘The one you feed.’
Labels: food for thought, the inside battle, the one you feed
Posted by from roots to blooms at 4:59 PM
In the movie Fever Pitch, Ben Wrightman is crazy about the Boston Red Sox baseball team. He rarely misses a game during the spring and summer months.
One winter, Ben falls in love with a young woman named Lindsey and wins her heart. Then spring rolls around, and she finds out that he’s a different person during baseball season. He has no time for her unless she goes to the games with him.
When Lindsey ends her relationship with Ben because of his fanaticism, he talks with a young friend, who says, “You love the Sox. But tell me, have they ever loved you back?” Those words cause Ben to analyze his priorities and to give more time to the woman he loves, who loves him back.
We pour our lives into hobbies, pleasures, activities, work - many good things...
When it seems our life is getting out of balance, the question, “Has that hobby or activity or thing ever loved me back?” may help to keep us in check... loving people are what really count.
- Anne Cetas -
Our Daily Bread
I need balance
to get my priorities right
to get my life back on track
Labels: Have they ever love you back?, Our Daily Bread, priorities, What really counts?
Posted by from roots to blooms at 1:49 AM
Saturday, February 21, 2009
found this video & i thought it was pretty amusing...
Labels: 25 things i hate about facebook, facebook, video, youtube
Posted by from roots to blooms at 1:01 AM
Thursday, February 19, 2009
where's the DISCRETION?
Sometimes, people forget that buses are public places. save your couple tiff for a more appropriate place. there isn't a need to irritate others with all the glory details or sweeping accusations flung about like confetti. especially when it's neither an intellectual debate nor music to the ears.
Labels: bus rides, discretion, public peeves, ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 11:26 PM
Monday, February 16, 2009
The thing about practicing detachment is that
it's merely a veil for escapism & delayed reaction.
All that pent up emotions still hit you at the end of the day.
After all, GARBAGE IN, GARBAGE OUT.
Labels: detachment, mood, ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 2:37 AM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Some are more EQUAL than others.
wasn't being unreasonable or unappreciative. I thought for 1 day in a year, things could be different. but you both weren't sensitive enough to practice some form of DISCRETION. and I'm mad at myself for letting that get to me.
some things to be happy about: new bag from HURS from 5is & men shen :)
Labels: ramblings
Posted by from roots to blooms at 2:21 AM
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Haven't been in the best of moods this week. Somehow, the little things got to me and I couldn't stop myself from being upset. It was no one's fault really. Perhaps, I could have made myself feel better by walking away. rather than suppressing all those -ve emotions. but something stopped me. it just didn't felt right to behave anti-socially...
I certainly have no disillusions about the situation because I have no right to expect anything. Not that there was much to expect to begin with. Yet, why do I still feel disappointed and upset each time? I'm tired of facing the same situation over and over again. I really NEED to learn how to cope with it because there's no solution to it and I'm sure there'll be more to come.
feeling slightly better now after a satisfying run at the park. despite the restlessness in me, there was a familiarity to my pacing and speed tonight that I haven't felt for a long time. the sky was really pretty too with its rosy purplish hue to it...
Posted by from roots to blooms at 12:52 AM
Saturday, February 07, 2009
And it sucks.
Because logic dictates that
what goes up must come down,
isn't it?
Labels: ramblings
